Beautiful Ilamas

Look at this beautiful llama, the fur was so soft and the look on its face was so innocent. I was happy to be able to hold and touch it all the time. Chef Diva kept cautioning me not to stand behind its back, while my little angel kept her distance.

It was mind boggling at first seeing the llamas in the middle of the Xmas winter market, but we figured that it must be part of the fun family ride. By the way the young girl who was holding one of the llamas was such a pretty thing, super pretty indeed.

I love the llamas, but hubby and the angels do need a lot of coaxing to come round to be with the llamas………………… well some people *wicked smile*

Hay Playing

This is the first time we witnessed the Hay Play Area, it is amazing how kids and adults got themselves so engrossed in this area. By the way the hay was wet but they sure looked like they were having loads of fun. I guess this is part of the local tradition.

This is one area where none of us was adventurous enough to join in the fun, as the weather was super cold today.

When the season is over, for your information the hay is used to cover the strawberries during the winter season.

Eid Adha

Eid Adha, both Chef Diva and my little angel were at work and school. Hubby took the day off as we still have urgent errands to run, and we were supposed to meet someone at 5pm.

Wishes from friends and families came through emails as well as text messages, of which some was responded to and some were ok……………… ignored. It is bad when I am not sure anymore if people are being genuine or otherwise, it is bad I know, but I have come to this stage of my life that nothing really matters.

Sari asked if I was making any rendang, I wish I had, because I would normally send some goodies to her house on Eid. However, I had run out of dried chilies and it is not possible to make any without dried chilies. Once I tried making rendang using the Thai bird eye chilies, but it was super hot thus making it impossible to consume.

My sister and I had an exchange of text messages which made me laughed, when she offered to send come dried chilies, or otherwise she will fly over with some rendang. So sweet of her and so thoughtful too.

Eid Adha people, may we always walk in the right path of the Lord.

Parents Teachers Meeting

Very True

This is where hubby and me nearly punched a teacher's face

Her grade drawing

Her Art teacher took this picture of her and post it on the board

Collections of her grade garden drawings

It was parent teachers meeting today; I had requested to meet up with a couple of my little angel’s teachers. The first appointment was at 1605 hours, so hubby could not accompany me until after the second appointment. Chef Diva was also not able to come as she was requested to work late in preparation for the Thanksgiving dinner, so it was just me and my little angel in the beginning.

The input from her teachers was very positive and I am so proud of her.

Fight Against Racism

The two angels left, they were not interested in tagging along with hubby and me, to witness my craziness of following the demonstrators, who were demonstrating against racism in their parliment. I know it can be risky following these people, but my curiosity will always get the best of me.

Along the way, I befriended some locals (who spoke like 3 words of English) and a policeman on duty to understand what this demonstration was all about. All the main roads were closed, trams were not in operation till quite late in the night.

When we arrived home, we discovered that the two angels had to walk all the way home due to these reasons, but I had fun.

Some Doctor You Are!!!!!!

I was all dressed up to go and meet hubby, and then onward for my doctor appointment, when Chef Diva called requesting that I wait for her so that she can get the house keys from me.

The weather was good, not windy at all, but it took me more than 10 minutes to wait for the tram. Arrived at the designated meeting place and hubby was already there. We then proceeded to the bus stand, where we had to wait, wait and wait some more. I noticed that more people were coming to wait for the same bus, which finally arrived almost after 20 minutes.

We arrived at the Neurologist clinic on time, just to discover that he does not speak a single word of English, and that his English speaking secretary had left for the day, and that he looked scary, and that his clinic messy and smelling of cigarettes. I was glad for all these as it allowed us to run out of his clinic without a second thought.

We were wondering as we walked back to the bus stand, how can this man be recognized as a Neurologist, where does he get his qualification from, and how can he even be registered to practice. How?

I am not going to look for another Neurologist, instead I will just wait for the one recommended by my doctor to return from his vacation, I can wait albeit the constant pain, and my resistance to ignore the pain killer.

December 7, is the date……………………. Till then.

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Saturday Night Walk

Saturday night walk, the two angels just having fun and fooling around. The night was misty but it was worth the walk.

C5 - 6

Finished with the X-rays, but did not get to see the Neurologist as the one recommended by my doctor is away on vacation and will only be back after two weeks. The clinic advised me to see another Neurologist and had an appointment on Monday at 1630 hours.

I discussed the X-Ray report with my medic princess and was glad that she could advise me in lay man terms of what was written on the report, and make me understand my condition. I know that I could count on her always.

I also understand that Arm pain is the most typical symptom of a cervical spine predicament. C5-6 level or cervical 5 and 6 level is the most common level of cervical disc to rupture. As the cervical disc gets herniated, this will press on the cervical nerve. That is why; pain travels through the arm via the nerve pathway.

C5-6 herniated disc also causes weakness on the triceps. The triceps are those muscles found on the upper arm, and extends right through the forearm. A tingling feeling and numbness can be plausibly felt with the pain and generally travels from the triceps to the middle finger.

Till Monday and my next appointment with my doctor, I will need to go and get my pain killer.

Medical Journey

Finally I went to see the doctor; the continuous pressing pain on my left arm is becoming unbearable. The queue was as expected………………. Long. Meanwhile hubby and me went to this little Chinese do for a bit of snack. A terrible mistake, as the food was so not worth it.

Arrived back at the clinic, waited for approximately 15 minutes when my name was called. The smiling doctor has got an intern with him; I could only picture my daughter doing the same thing soon. Distraction, distraction……………… hemm.

The doctor looked at me and I looked at him (actually he was waiting for me to talk, but I was busy in my own thoughts, smiling and giving my concentration to the intern), until the doctor asked me, ‘how can I help you?’

Anyways, after the meeting, this is what I have to do. 1) I was prescribed with pain killers, though I insist that I do not want it, the doctor was adamant that I should keep some in case of emergency. 2) 3 kinds of X-ray were requested to be done immediately and 3) an urgent appointment with the Neurologist.

Leaving the house early today to do all these, and ok my medical journey to be continued. Bye.

My Banoffee

Our latest craze for dessert in the house is banoffee pie. Amazing how this simple dessert will fill up our fridge at least once a week. Like always I try to simplify and modify all my recipes. There are many such recipes on the internet; however there are no boundaries to making your very own banoffee. Here is mine:

Ingredients

Cocoa powder for dusting (you can use as much as you like, as the bitter taste does make a different)

1 tin of Nestle condensed milk (I choose to boil the whole tin unopened under medium heat for at least 2.5 hours, then let it cool down and you will get a superb caramel)

1 box of 150g digestive biscuits (put all in a zip plastic bag then crush the biscuits using a rolling pin)

3 tablespoon of butter (melted)

5 large bananas (I use the over ripped bananas as it has better taste)

1 packet of Philadelphia cream cheese and a small carton whip cream (simply whip them together until stiff)

Method

Mix the crushed digestive biscuits with the melted butter and press in a medium bowl. Put in the fridge for at least 20 minutes to set and chill.

Take the condensed milk, open the can and pour the caramel on top of the chilled biscuits. Peel and thinly slice the bananas, and arrange as you like over the caramel. Put this back in the fridge to chill for another 20 minutes.

Finally, spread the cream over the bananas and dust the cocoa powder over it. Chill again till you are ready to eat.

Sign Of A Sick Mind

If you wonder why there is such a person as Fritzl here, well wonder no more. There are many in the making, people are obsessed with sex. What you see on MTV or billboards here, you will never dream of seeing it there, not even in the next 10 years to come.

Thank God,

She Did It On Her Own

Chef Diva spent a month of her intern salary to travel to London for this concert. She came back with a poster and CD of the group that she cannot seem to have enough. Each time I looked at this angel of mine, I can only think of one strong word to describe her ............. DETERMINTATION!!!!

Well, obviously from the picture you can tell that she did not get the camera that she wanted, as I did not give her the advance that she requested for (lol). But like I said she has got a lot of determination and I am sure that in no time she will get the camera.

Whatever, what matters is that she did it all on her own, and she even brought her little sister with her, all on her expense.

I Can't Explain Anything At All

Sometimes darkness is a solace
Sometimes angry tears blind my sight
Sometime vengeance feels so right
Sometimes I think to be bad is best

There were days that I wish for the sky to fall
There were days that I wish the rain never stops
There were days that I wish the train will keep rambling on
There were days that I wish to keep on hating

Today I look at the mirror and I just wanted to break it to pieces
Today I heard the wind howling and I just wanted to shut it up
Today I found some pictures and I just wish to burn them to ashes
Today I saw those happy faces and I just wish that there be miseries

I don’t want to know why I am here
I care not for the scars on my bones
I am torn and tortured
Yet I can’t explain anything at all

Thoughtful Angels

I was so proud of them, travelling on their own for the first time, and Alhamdulillah everything was well. They came home with two thoughtful gifts from their hearts, and I couldn’t be happier.

Kicap lemak manis habhal (we can never get this here, don’t even think of it) and MJ’s life story……………………… danke darling.

Phone Booth......... RED

I don't know what with them and the phone booth........................... they so loving it!!!!!

Please Don't Give Up

Sari called, this time round there was a kind of panic in her voice. She will normally call me whenever she gets her results from the oncologist, or the CT scan or anything that concerns her situation. This time round the call was different, she was sad, a bit lost and mostly not believing what was being told to her.

Immediately I went silent, I was taken by surprise as Sari is not someone who feels sad or easily let down. I was confused; don’t know what to say and I think she sensed that. There was a moment when we both were lost for words.

Funny I have always been the strong one, I have been able to calm the party on the other side of the phone but I was a letdown today. I was too careful with my words, so much so nothing was said. In the end I managed to assure her to go for another opinion.

Prior she was so looking forward to doing breast reconstruction this coming summer, she was looking forward to making all the arrangements to move to the land of the Kangaroo, she was so eager to share her dreams with me, but I failed her today. I am sorry Sari, but hearing you sad was like you telling me that you are giving up and I am not ready to hear you giving up just yet.

Please have faith and believe in Him………………………