Friday, January 12, 2018


Dulu aku ada kapal,
Ramai yang menumpang
Sekarang aku kayuh sampan
Seorang pun tak pandang
Esok aku mungkin hilang.
Orang pasti ingat, aku dah karam
Mereka tak sedar,
Padahal aku dah punya kapalselam, dan belum tenggelam.

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This is the story of my life. When I'm down even family thinks that I'm an alien.

Alhamdulillah, no hard feelings. I came here alone, and will go back alone. Thank you Allah.

Friday, December 8, 2017


I love being alone, been in solitude. This is the moment for me to inhale and to know the possibilities from the impossibilities. They said, I'm being arrogant but they forget how far I've walked to patch things up, to try to fit in, but my afford is nothing compared to what they want.
Please leave me alone in my space, to understand me, to love me, to enjoy me, to forgive me, and continue my distance away from you.
Pardon me, because I do really need to reset, recharge and regroup me. I love my solitude.

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Don't Understand

I am trying to understand, and still find it impossible to understand, how my name often ends up in the mouths of people that I don't even know, and never spoken to in any day of my life.

Life is strange, but people are nasty. Therefore, strange is nothing.

Thursday, October 12, 2017


Study me as much as you like, you will never know me, for I differ a hundred ways from what you see me to be. Put yourself behind my eyes and see me as I see myself, for I have chosen to dwell in a place you cannot see - Rumi

Sunday, October 8, 2017


Your words thrown freely at me
As though I'm deaf,
As though I'm dead,
As though I'm nothing,
As though I'm without feelings.

It hurts me
More than you can imagine
More than I can express
More than words can describe
More than the tears that I hold back

You treated me
Like a wasted being
Like a leopard without spots
Like a rainbow without colors
Like a night without the moon

Why me?
Because you know I love you
Because you know I'm very forgiving
Because you know I'm not nasty
Because you know I'll never stop praying for you

Above all, because you know a mother's love conquered even the deepest of darkness in your heart.

May Allah Swt forgive you and keep you safe always.