Today

Today you may be the one that is laughing at me
Today you may be the one that is sneering at me
Today you may be the one that is gossiping about me
Today you may be the one that is blaming all on me
But deep in your heart you know the truth

Today you are being loved by all
Today you are being saluted by all
Today you are being welcomed by all
Today you are being wanted by all
But deep in your heart you know the truth

Today you can’t even call me by my name
Today you can’t even call me a friend
Today you can’t even call me a mother
Today you can’t even call me at all
But deep in your heart you know the truth

Today like many other days I sit and wonder
Today like many other days I sit and ponder
Today like many other days I sit and cry
Today like many other days I sit and pray
But deep in my heart I know the truth

Baby Bicycle

Hubby called, asking me to have a look at the baby bicycle picture and to comment on it. What can I comment on; I just fell in love with it instantly. We have decided that we will not buy a ready available one; in fact we will try to get a quotation for one to be custom made.

I am not sure when this will materialize, but I sure hope that this can happen before the winter, as no one rides in the winter, as the weather will be freezing and the road terribly slippery.

Hubby rides to work every day now, I can imagine us using the baby bicycle during our weekends outing only, but it is something that I am looking forward to.

InsyaAllah.

Breast Lump

I noticed a lump in my left breast for the past two days, it was first discovered when I was taking my shower. As you all know I had two lumps removed from my right breast prior, and Alhamdulillah they were benign, I also had one lump removed from the tip of one of my ovaries, they were all good results after the biopsy.

However, this new lump is kind of different; it is harder and also giving me some pain. I don’t want to be paranoid, maybe it is because I was pushing myself so hard with all the shoulder and arms machine in the gym, or maybe it was an extended pain from the existing pain of my upper shoulder, or maybe just maybe it is really a lump.

Before I left home approximately 7 months back, I had gone for a breast scan and was given the clear, so I have decided to let it be for a few more days or weeks before making another appointment. I don’t want to be stressed out on this discovery, the future’s not ours to see………………. Que sera sera!!!!!

This entry will be a calendar reminder, in case I might need a record for the future.

7 Months And Over Weight

After 7 months, 6 kgs over weight, I am left with no other alternative, either be faaaaaaaatttttttttt in my old age, or drag my lazy ass to the GYM!!!!!! I choose the later sadly :)

Goodbye Michael

I sat glued for more than two hours watching the live telecast of the memorial ceremony for Michael Jackson, switching channels between CNN and MTV. I can’t remember how many times I just cried, it was too moving, too sad, too painful just knowing that he will finally be laid to rest.

I know what it felt like to be tormented, ridiculed, and judged unfairly. I know how it felt to have to keep your suffering within you, I know what it felt to keep on running, I know how it felt to cry all those lonely tears, as the world keeps on laughing at you.

May be now they will leave you alone Michael, maybe now you are in a better place where there is no more mocking, sneering and being looked at differently other than like the man you are in the mirror.

I will miss you Michael, don’t be afraid to be walking in the path of the Lord. Rest in peace will you.

In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tribulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.