I'm Out Of Here

People often thought that countries in Europe will be able to give you the best of medical facilities, you brag and dream of being treated in such places. However, what you often hear, wonder, dream and ponder is not what you will be given.

My girlfriend who is now at her 4th stage of cancer was left in the cold when her Oncologist just ditched her totally. What could be worse was that she came and waited at the appointed time, and saw other patients being called in one by one, but when her turn came no one calls her. She waited for more than two hours only to be told that the Oncologist had left.

Later when she lamented the situation to me, I felt numb, how could this be possible? We are living in the fourth most peaceful country in the world, and human rights was being told like reading a daily bible. If someone were to tell me that this could happen here, I would consider to rethink before believing my ears, but from this particular girlfriend, she can only be telling the truth as she is running for time.

Call it paranoid or whatever, I have now decided that I am not going to seek medical treatment here. I have decided that somewhere out of here, and closer to home could be safer and easier, as people there would be more human, and yeah at least there will be no language barrier. Yes, I am out of here where medical is concerned. Understandably it will be more constrain to my finances, but I want to be sure that I am given the right to a more trustworthy medical team, not leave me fighting for air when I am yet to be drowned (I hope I am making sense here).

Anyways, I am running faster than the road runner to seek medical help elsewhere.

It's Her Dinner

Without hubby in the country, I took the birthday girl for her dinner treat at last at this Japanese restaurant that she has never been before. She took so long to read the menu, for a while I thought she was busy studying for her culinary exam again, little did I know that she was scanning the prices………………… what a darling.

Anyways, she settled for the grilled eel and she said it was the best grilled eel that she had had so far. Nothing matters more than to see the happiness on any of my kids face.

Her birthday celebrations continues…………………….. (surprise).

Let Me Miss You

Can I just say in not so many words, YOU ARE NOT WELCOME? I have decided that nothing will change especially with people like you. So do me a favor buzz off and stop trying.

Let me miss you…………………………….

Happy 21st Birthday

Chef Diva is 21 today, she took the day off of work, and we spent quality time together, just the two of us. We had good talks, good fooling around, and good walks. All she wants for her 21st birthday is an ice cream, such a simple darling she is.

However, they said good things come in small sizes or on a piece of paper, and my Chef Diva deserves the best for today and all her days ahead, so that piece of paper was delivered to her as soon as she opened her eyes this morning. The joy of a surprise 21 years was just contagious.

Happy 21st Birthday Sayang.

We Will Miss You

Hubby left for his duty travel, while at the same time the two angels returned from their adventure. We met at the airport, and feast ourselves from one restaurant to the other, busy filling each other up with our own stories, while waiting for hubby’s take off.

We will miss you………………………

Sunday Without The Two Angels

Most of Sunday was spent catching on the much missed sleeping hours. We woke up around 3pm, and realized that our stomach was crying to be fed. We decided to go to our favorite Japenese Restaurant, and eat till our heart content.

Without the two angels..................muah aha ah aha ahaaaa.

Saturday Without The Angels

We spent a day at Pandorf yesterday, as the two agels were not with us, so we took our time walking around and browsing the many many many malls of every damn branded product that you can imagine. The items bought were worth the 14 Euros ride.

Would You Snitch?

In the kitchen standing next to me while watching what I was preparing, my little angel was walking me through the happenings of the day at school. It will start from the moment she arrived at school, what happened during school times and till the moment she stepped into the front door of the house.

This is a routine for us, and in between she will pause while I pep talk her on a certain situation, or let her ponder on whether the actions she had taken were wrong or right. Along the way we will sometimes laugh so hard or tears will start welling in her eyes.

What she had to tell me this time around was something that should not at all happen, or something that happens all the time in any kind of examination. Last week they had to sit for a very tough Science assessment. She was very nervous after the assessment was over and honestly let me know that she might not fare well. They were given back their paper today, she was ecstatic as she scored an unexpected high score. However, one of her girlfriends was not happy at all with her results.

What makes it more interesting was that this particular girlfriend always works on her assessment using pencil instead of a pen. Therefore, when the paper was handed back, and the answers discussed with the class, she took the opportunity to cheat by erasing the wrong answers and replacing them with the right ones, then go to the teacher and has her mark changed.

My little angel caught her doing the cheat as she was sitting next to the girlfriend, she could not believe what she was seeing, and the girlfriend just looked at her, and said “I’m sorry, but I really need the high marks”, my little angel responded with, “I can cheat too you know, but I don’t”. However, that does not stop the girlfriend from carrying on with her illicit behavior.

My little angel’s question to me, “if you were in my position, would you have told the teacher?”. It was a tough question for me, as the society of students in her current school is way too different from those back home. If you tell on someone, you will be considered as snitching, and words will go around and friends will start avoiding you, as though you are a smelly skunk.

So, what do you do in such a situation? I think what she did was right, she told the girlfriend that she can cheat too but she did not, hoping that her girlfriend will have some guilt as not to proceed with the cheat, but I guess something dies hard, especially when you are sure that you will not get caught.

Would you snitch?

Fear Not Girlfriend

What do you do when you feel that time is running out on you? What do you do when everything you wanted seem so far fetched? What do you do when the one that you love and trust begins ignoring your call when you need him/her most?

When she called me this morning, I was surprised; it was still very early to receive a call from her. I answered, but can only speak briefly as I was still riding the train on the way home. I told her that I will call her back later.

The conversation that we had upon my reaching home, was mainly a one way conversation, I played the role of a listener as my thoughts and my tongue were not in sync to answer her and to have the normal conversation that she needed.

What do you tell someone when she was told that she has now reached the stage 4 of her cancer, how do you tell her that everything will work out eventually, or where do you go from here to cheer her on, to let her trust again, to let her feel that life is still worth living. I was dumbfounded literally.

I am praying for you girlfriend, trust me I am feeling you. Please don’t be afraid, everything happens for many reasons, and we will not know it until we analyze everything, and learn to accept the twist of faith.

Thank you for telling your son that he can count on us whenever he needed. As much as you want, we will be there for him, insyaAllah.

Her Frustration

Of late she has been kind of distraught at her work place; I try to encourage her to be more receptive to people’s behavior, and advise her that she is only getting the feel of the tip of the iceberg. There will be worse kind of people that she might have to encounter as she progresses with her career achievement.

Trying to make her tough can be quite stressful for both of us, as it breaks my heart each time she will have to shed her tears over some frustration that she could not face out front. We joke about the situation afterwards, so that she will feel better and more confident of her rights.

On some occasions, my little angel and I will meet her anywhere and everywhere, and we will poke fun at her. She is always game for anything, no matter how tired she may be after work. Starting work at 0600 hours is not a joke, but being in the hospitality industry she ain’t got any choice for now.

The pictures in this entry were taken when we took her for an afternoon tea on one of her not so nice situations after work, and me trying to capture a big zit on her forehead, and she trying to ditch me. We had fun and that matters most for us.

I just want her to be happy and know that no matter how nasty people can be, no one can take away your dignity from you. Be strong for your mama ok Chef Diva, or at least for yourself.

How Can They Talk?

We finally went to the AAI invitation again last evening, and this time around it was the right date, day, time and venue. I did not prepare anything, as I was experimenting with yet another new recipe; famously know in the Croatian-Serbian menu called Burek. At experimenting, I only made enough for the four of us.

We left the house at 1815 hours just to be greeted by heavy rain as we step out of the front main door. No one wants to turn back to fetch an umbrella, and hubby is not with us as he is working, and we are supposed to meet half way. Well, rain or shine, we were not going to miss this invite, so laughingly we weathered the rain and made it to our destination. Thank goodness the wind was mild, so it was surprisingly quite refreshing to walk in the rain.

AAI aired a Syrian documentary about children in the slum, and it was sad to see how childhood is taken away from the kids, how they were denied the simple things in life, how they dream of becoming a doctor, an engineer but were never given the opportunity to hold a pencil or read a book, lest step into a classroom. There were some questions and answers after the airing of the documentary.

However, the questions that my little angel asked me in the middle of the documentary nearly made me burst out laughing, if not because I have to behave myself in public. Here’s her question, “Mama, if the children don’t know how to write and read, then how come they can talk?”

Go figure ok, I am still laughing as I write this entry……………….. ahhh my darling little angel.

When A Boy Meets A Girl

Scene 1:

At your work place, when one particular guy keeps chatting you up, then telling you that he loves you on a daily basis, and is always looking out for you, do you wonder what does that mean?

Then on some days you do not see each other, and he suddenly comes around you and whispers in your ears that he misses you, what do you think that means?

I would think that that someone is smitten by you.

Scene 2:

When in school this particular boy was ignoring you all along, then out of nowhere and no warning one day he waited for you at the locker. He started to tease you and then left. And you think alright this is going to be a onetime teasing and nothing more.

However, to your surprise he kept waiting for you at the locker on a daily basis, keep on teasing you, hiding your bag and make you chase him around the locker. Then he leaves and not say anything and you begin to miss him. What do you think your emotion is telling you?

I suppose he did not wait for you at the locker for a few days, because he was beginning to feel shy, but like before he reappeared and waited for you again. This time he made it obvious to everyone that he was teasing you, and your friends suddenly thought ………… oh how sweet that you both are an item. Yet he does not confess and you dare not miss him.

Where do you go from here?