My Sister Was Here

My sister came to visit, and we all had fun in her company.  Thank you for visiting, please come again.

Dear Angels of Sandy Hook

Dear Angels, 

Every day I keep wondering what could have gone so wrong on the day that your very young life was taken so suddenly. I think of you with so much love, adorable, beautiful and full of strength. 

In your short life you have shown the world that it is more important to understand our own children then just arguing about guns freedom in the world. You have shown the world that again and again those talks were cheap, leaders keep on talking and talking and doing nothing; and innocents like you are paying for their stupidity. 

Dear Angels,

You are the sun in the darkness now. Though your laughter may no longer be heard, your smiles will always be brighter in all of our hearts. 

You are in a better place now, where there will only be peace. I hope you are surrounded by beautiful things, all the toys that you love, all the teddy bears that will keep you warm, all the prayers that will keep you strong and all the love that will never end. 

Dear Angels, 

You will never be forgotten.

There Will Always Be A First Time

There will always be a first time in your life no matter how old or young you are. The experience can only make you a better person. At my age now, living away from home and my kids, there were many first time that come and go for me for almost 6 years here. However, my first time experience on November 27, 2012 will stay with me till the end of my days.

A good friend demised in a land where the religion is not our common religion. I was devastated; I had promised her that I will do everything possible to give her the kind of funeral that she wanted. It was a task that I took pride in and realized that no matter how many times it was written that we will have and be respected with our own religious rights, help was very minimal from either the hospital and authorities itself.

Anyways, what I wanted to put in this entry today is that when I was in my homeland I do take for granted that when you passed there will always be people to take care of your body, therefore, you need not worry or you need not have to learn and pay attention to what should be done when the time actually comes.

Well, this time it was different, a promised has been made, and it should be made good. Though I had just been discharged from the hospital following a major surgery, I tip toed slowly to give a dear friend what she wanted for her last rights. I represent the family to shower and shroud her body. There was no time for a second thought, no time to ponder, I have to do what I am required to do and I could not be more proud of myself.

I never think that I could carry on this duty but here I am.

Winter By The River

It was worth the river walk................... simply amazing

If Only They Have Phones In Heaven

 

 

Do they have phones in heaven or can they have phone in heaven? What would that be like? Are we the living gonna be happier knowing that we can still be in communication with those in heaven, or will it make it more difficult for us, for we still could not see each other physically?

I wish heaven had a phone so that I could hear your voice again, so that I would know exactly what you wanted to tell me when I failed to call you in your last moment. Friends and family told me that I should just let it go, that I should not ponder on that time when I should have called you yet I was putting the call on hold for another day, but that day never came. I am sorry, so sorry.

During the last few months before your demised, we would talked for a long time about a whole many things and a whole lot of nothing too. We would laugh, we would cry, not forgetting the words of encouragement for each other and the routine would repeat itself. The phones were our form of communication, and now that phones do not hold the same function anymore.

If only they have phones in heaven, I would be calling to ask you for the contact number to order the “kicap” that you had ordered for me as my welcome home gift after the operation, and I would have told you that it is alright to go for heaven are waiting for you my dear friend.

Goodbye Sari……………. Till we meet again, if only they have phones in heaven!!!!

I Am Thankful

Today I will dedicate my entry to a dear friend, whom I have never met in person but have always been there in my time of need. This is the type of friend with whom I was not even ashamed to cry my whole heart out to. I have got a lot of thankfulness for this person and I am all about giving thanks to her today.

Today, as I sit typing on my keyboard I am thankful just for my health and my life, my hubby and my kids, my family and my dear friends, especially Dr. H. Along the way Dr. H has been the invincible pillar that I keep leaning on and confident that that pillar is so strong, that it will not allow me the time to bury myself in self-pity or to question the Lord. The pillar that I wish can be just next to me and be reachable at all time.

I know I am privilege to meet her even if it is only online, but all the advises that she had sent my way had made me a better person and a stronger person in facing the challenges that life had thrown at me, especially where health is concerned.

I am thankful.

Updating

Reasons for not updating my entry for so long:

1.   I was in hospital undergoing a major operation

2.   The sudden demised of a good friend as soon as I was released from the hospital, and I was involved with the formalities of the burial

3.   Recuperating and trying to live with the pain from the operation and the pain of losing a friend all of a sudden

4.   Hubby had to leave for deployment

5.   My dear sister whom I have not seen for a couple of years came to visit

6.   Hospital appointment and follow ups

Worry not, I will be back…………………… !!!