Wake Up

Straighten yourself, stand in front of the mirror and look hard at the reflection in the mirror. Are you not thankful of what you are today? Are you that miserable? Have you got no focus in your life?  Please buckle up before it is too late, before I decided that I should not let your bullying kill me.  Please do not wait for the day when I confronted you with "Enough is Enough."

Be thankful for every day that I love you, for every moment that I care for you, for every seconds that I still think of you.  Go through your mental list for the day and be grateful.  You have to learn about being gratitude, as only gratitude will help you go through the rough times.

Wake up and focus on thankfulness.

The Best Way To Heal

I still don't believe all the things that I have seen, I still don't believe from all of them, you could be the one who breaks my heart the most.  I still don't believe that from an angel you could be a devil.  I still don't believe all the things that you are talking and saying about me.  I still don't believe that you can be such a liar, a manipulator, etc.  I thought I raised you well, I thought I have given you all the bad examples to stay clear from, I thought I could trust you.  I was blinded by your innocent.

You broke my heart, I want you to know that and I will take this to my grave.

Honey, you were right when you told me that "no good deed goes unpunished."

A Turkish Wedding

We were invited to a Turkish wedding in late June this year.  It was a very funky wedding, very noisy, and loads of people.  The food was all Turkish and nothing that I liked much, but the mother was a very good host. The wedding was not something that the parents of bride condone, therefore only the mother was there to give support to her daughter.  It was sad, indeed very sad when your own daughter could not see what you as a mother could see in her choice of man.  

The wedding was in my opinion not conforming to our belief, I do not wish for any of my daughters to have a wedding like this.

I wish both the groom and the bride many happy years ahead.

Please Let Us Be Together

I’m at the point of my sickness that I don’t understand anymore what’s going on. Fever comes and goes almost every day of the week. This week I had so much of stomach attack; it could be so painful that caused breathing to be tough.

This morning as I lay in bed, too tired to do anything, the feeling of nausea was overcoming the reality of being alive. My fever is still not subsiding; add to that, the reflux that’s beyond my control and the burping of too much air and a continuous hiccup too.

Hubby came and served me breakfast in bed, I have no desire at all to eat, but thinking of the effort that he had put, I surrender. I don’t remember how long I took to finish the food. I know it was very long. He kept coming to check on me, and as he kissed me a zillion times, and hold my hands in his, I could only say a sincere prayer in my heart.

“Dear Almighty Allah, you have brought us together here in this world, please let us be together in your heaven.”............. Amin.

Dear Daughter

Dear Daughter

I may not be the best mom in the world, I may not be the mom that you dream of, I may not be the mom friend that you had wished for, but I am your mom and I swear that no one can love you more than I do.  If at times I seem to you to be too domineering, too controlling and too close for comfort, that can only mean I love you with every bit of me.

Dear Daughter

I want you to know that you should never ever let loneliness or insecurity dictate whom you love. That won't be real or satisfying. It will just be a moment of you playing with the insecurity of yourself.  It is like filling the emptiness of your life, because you think you are lonely. Find a man from a place of security and confidence so that you don't feel you need him to "complete" you, so that you can still be independent, so that you can still be happy as you.

Because I will always love you - mama

Ayah Dan Ibu

You Are On Your Own

You can do everything you can as a parent, you can communicate with them, you can be kind, you can be merciful, you can give them good education, you can be sincere and you can make ‘doa’ to Allah. However, that does not guarantee that your child when they are no longer a child, when they are already adults will commit themselves to your guidance. You don’t have that in your hands as parents. Guidance is in the hands of the Almighty Allah.

You can do everything you can, and you can still have messed up kids, who will do some pretty bad stuff and they did. Just because as parents you put in all the efforts, this does not mean that guidance is guaranteed for our kids.

When I’m dead and gone you will be on your own, what will you be then?

You should have ‘takwa' in Allah, I have no authority over you before Allah. You are on your own when it comes to guidance.

Believe

"If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours." - Henry David Thoreau

Civet Coffee

Was desperate for a cup of coffee tonight. 
Realized that we don't have any more coffee. 
Remembered a close friend got me the Civet coffee before her retirement at UN OOSA.
Put kettle to the boil.
Took the coffee out, read the description on box.
Change my mind on coffee for tonight.

Destined

Believe in your destiny and put your full trust in Almighty Allah.

Thank You For Your Advise

They said "if you love someone, you should trust them", and I said "if you love someone, you should not lie to them."

Love with trust and without honesty is a destination to doom.

Thank you for your advise.

If You Don't Know.................