Today I Know You Still Love Me

Today, after a long, long time, I let myself go, I let all the tears that have been welling inside me flow fiercely and freely.  I was not ashamed if anyone will witnessed the tears, not ashamed to admit that I thought this moment will not come.  Thank you Allah.

Thank you alone is never enough for me to tell you Al Mighty Allah how grateful I am for today. Show me ya Allah, lead me to be your best of servant and to always be ever so thankful to you.

Today I know you still love me.

Fake

Often time I will find myself wondering and pondering on my life.  What ifs and what if not.  It's amazing how I realized that there were so many road in my life that I would not want to walk on again, that I wished I was not blinded to have gone, and made those road part of my history.

I will be lying if I did not feel any remorse or regrets having visited those road again in my mind games.  However, what can I do? I had promised that I will not live in the past and try to forget as much as possible those dark road in my life.  I must admit that I do hate myself for not loving me as much as I was loving the world then, and pining to be the best in the world.

Now, I realized that this world is full of fake people, your friends, the strangers, all the the people that your crossed path with, but the saddest of them all is when you have been slapped hard on the face with the realization that, the most fake of them all are your own family..............