Who Can I Turn To For Help?

When they told me that I got cancer, I thought it was a nasty joke, but then they explained to me all the evidences from the pathology report and I was convinced. I signed all the papers to have a major operation done as soon as possible. I was feeling a lot of despair while in the hospital, the morning after the operation was a real nightmare to me.

I was discharged after 6 days in the hospital, and my sister came to visit, and for two weeks I put my cancer aside. We had a lot of laughs, joking and talking about good things, we played in the snow, we dance in the rain, we went to the mosque, we mingled with nice people, and I forgot the cancer in me. When the pain came back every now and then, I pushed them aside, I was enjoying my sister, I was enjoying a family member, I was just having a good time. In other words I was trying to put the truth far behind me.

Now sitting here alone, with the gloomy weather outside my windows, and pile of unpaid medical bills in front of me, I can’t help but let the tears flow freely. Cancer is not only bothering my physical being, it is also eating away at financial situation. They said cancer is a bitch, I never believed that, I always thought that cancer is just a disease, and yeah, like many others I never thought that it will come knocking on my own front door.

Each time I got a medical bill, I tried to hide it away, put it down most in my filling tray, with the hope that it will just evaporate and disappear and that I will have nothing to worry about. However, when I remember that the next appointment will be in a weeks’ time, I know I cannot ignore the unpaid medical bills, I have to make payment before I will be allowed to carry on with the next treatment.

But where will I get the money now, who can I turn to for help? Or do I put my treatment on hold until I can pay up all the medical bills? Lord, I hope you are hearing me, I need your help.