Menopause :P

Since reaching the threshold of pentagenarian or spring chicken age or whatever anyone wants to call it, I am beginning to read a lot on the signs and symptoms of menopause. Sometimes exchanging notes with friends who have been there or asking my doctor about it.

Friends often tell me funny stories of their experiences, or just casually telling me that ‘you will know when you reach there’, but I am already here and I need to know. How does it feel to be attacked by the hot flashes or the night sweats, how does it feel to be fatigue and depressed all the time? They also told me that each of us will experience different symptoms, and it is not necessary also all the symptoms that we read online.

I read one woman get so irritable once her periods stop, so much so that she decided to move out of the family home and live alone. It sounded scary to be irritable to that level isn’t it? But I have always been an irritable person, ever since I was 9. I can get irritated about everything and nothing, I get irritated when people talk too much, I get irritated when the rice is too soft, I get irritated when people are too slow, indeed I just get irritated.

Then again one of the symptoms indicated online is memory loss; wow …… this is serious business. I don’t want to wake up one morning thinking that my husband is an alien from Mars, or my little angel Miley Cyrus, or Chef Diva the wicked Gordon Ramsay.

Ok, ok another scary reality is the loss of libido………… arr, ‘honey did I not tell you that I wanted to live a celibate life? This is because it is easier for me to perform all my prayers’, but look it is the menopause symptom !!!!!! for real? (sad).

And for quite sometimes I keep telling hubby and my doctor that I was feeling so bloated, jokingly telling hubby too that I might finally be pregnant, and stirring the doctor to send me for a regime of laboratory tests, just to be given all results negative of anything at all.

Ermm……………… Alia, am I there yet?